What do I Want?

The clock keeps on ticking.. thoughts on what am I doing and if I am doing what I want.. and if I should look for the new challenge in life.. the thoughts go on and on.. but concludes in the same old inconclusive fashion..
thoughts wander from being an entrepreneur to a social worker to a top ranking corporate executive.. feelings flickers from doing something meaningful and satisfying at the grassroot level to buying a mont blanc watch as I dont own a slim watch yet..
sometimes i often wonder if I could balance both as at some level i want to have both.. can I be a successful entrepreneur / corporate executive and also do philanthropy.. not just donating money but getting my hands dirty.. i guess i can..
a random thought which sometimes strikes with full force is the temptation to go back to the school once again and do something in the field of public policy and international affairs..
anyway..
till the time I take the ultimate plunge, i am happy being a nice husband, a good son and brother, a caring friend, a reasonably well performing banker, a law abiding and tax paying citizen and of course someone who harbours warm feelings to do something for the under privileged ones..
cheers
Varun